I do Set You Free

I never quite wanted to end things this way, but too much has happened to bring me to this stage.  There’s no sense in trying, no more room for excuses, for the life that we sure lead, is not beneficial.

I no longer feel love.  I’ve forgotten your touch, because you simply keep pushing me further and further each day.  Not sure what to do now.  The doubts cloud my each thought.  I just can’t believe things got as bad as they did.

The love we once shared was once heaven sent, but now it’s just simply a thorn in my skin.  The years that were wasted, the hope simply lost.  The fact of the matter is we’re  not good together.

I tried and I tried to be that good wife.  I’m so far from perfect, and I do have my flaws, I may even have done more; but one thing I surely did right was prove my own worth.  I worked, and I cooked.  I even bore you a child.  I stood right beside you when your life hit rock bottom.

We then moved away to start our new life, but nothing has changed, time just simply stood still.  What did I do wrong?  I sure need to know.  To cause my own husband to shut me out where it counts, to no longer desire me or even kiss me good night.  To make me feel cheated, insecure and worthless.

You say that you love me.  I still somehow believe you, but how can you say it and not simply portray it.  How long did you think that I’ll put up with this?  I signed up for marriage not a lifetime of celibacy.

I’m not sure I can take this.  I’m not sure what to do.  All I do know is married life should’ve been better than this.  To have a companion and still feel so alone, is not a great feeling and definitely not good for one’s soul. 

Do you have any idea?  Do you know what it’s like?  To feel so unwanted night after night.  I gave you my all, and I see no way out, so please do accept this but I only want out.  If you care, if you love me, you would do the right thing.  You’ll sign the divorce papers and set this soul free.